“Dear Akshay,
I wouldn’t be writing this letter to you, if I knew what to say. For starters I want to tell you that I Love You and I believe that you love me too. But, lately I think that hasn’t been the case.
I am aware of the back bitching that you have done with Geet. I am aware of how you hate my parents. I am aware of the problems you are having with me. The loneliness you feel because of our child. Yes, I know all of that and I think you are mistaken. We love you dear. But, you shouldn’t have talked to Geet about it. You could have said those things to me instead. After all we are friends first. But, these events have shattered me. I feel so void, as if my guts have been wrenched and pulled apart from my body.
You have hurt me very badly. But, I love you so much, that I cannot even hate you and all such things make me want to hate you so very much. I just want you to know, that I know all of it, and I still love you. I request you to not involve Geet in this.
I hope we can sort it out.
Twinkle.”
I read and re-read my words again. I did not want Akshay to feel that I was condemning him, but I wanted him to know that he had hurt me very much. Folding the letter with care, I slid it in an envelope addressed to him and turned swiftly. Lo’ I bumped against him.
Akshay, my love, my husband. The father of our beautiful one month old daughter, Aaravi. The man I love the most and yet in the past few days he changed. Everything had changed. My once best friend, my first love had become in this back biting bitch. He was trying to tear apart the very family we had built together. I don’t know when had life taken this steep turn.
“Hey”, he said.
“Ouch!”, I replied, as the letter slipped from my hand.
“Sorry, it was my fault. Wait, let me get that for you.”, he said as he swiftly picked up the letter.
As he noticed his name on the letter, he asked with widened eyes, “A letter? For me? You wrote it for me?”
“Hmm”, I stared back in his eyes.
Without waiting he tore open the envelope and read the letter in front of me. All that I wanted to avoid was not going according to my plan. I had hoped of keeping it on his study table, so that he could read it late in the night, and then probably we could have a discussion and reach an agreement. But, that did not happen.
“That’s all you got to say?”, he asked in a deep voice.
“Should I have said something more?”, I replied with a trembling voice. I felt weak yet strong. If a fight was to ensue let it be. If we argued let it be. I would do anything to sort this out and get my husband back to his senses.
“I don’t care.”, and he turned and walked away.
No discussion. No fight. No nothing. I had shaking legs and an eerie silence for company.